Below are the 8 most recent journal entries recorded in dashboard_fool's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
9:46 pm	Sembreak with Kitty.... hmm...the grandma thing was one of the more darker side of my sembreak...now unto the better part... I spent some of the days with kitty and those particular days couldnt have been better. and I was bought into a new realization on how much i love her as i stood there with her, looking into her eyes cherishing every moment that I am with her..oh how i wish that the thing between us will never end. She is now a better part of my life.. She is my life,my love, my passion, my joy, my strength, my refuge, and my world..I love her...so much.. Embrace so much tighter Cause This could be our last together Heaven sheds tears for the wounded hearts The world it turns with us Hold me in closer, don’t let go of me Now we close our eyes and let go to the night I feel the thrill from words we say, I love you. Current Mood: loved Current Music: Endless, a silent whisper... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:16 pm	Ghost of a good thing.. hmmm... i guess it has been quite some time since ive updated and alot of things has happened during the past several weeks.haha.. so where do i start? let me see... i had the shingles just before the finals! and it was hell. at first i thought that it was just a simple rash, nothing to worry about. but then i was pursuaded to go to the health service by "you know who" and it turns out that it was the "shingles" *cue scary background music*. after learning that i started to "isolate" myself from my friends. well.. no not really but then again i refrained from getting in contact with them so they wouldnt catch it. besides my friends where like: Me:guys i just found out that i have the shingles! Mon: weh! wag kang lalapit sakin EeEeEewwww!! Jeric: EeEeEeEeEewwww!!!! Mon&Jeric:EeEeEeEeEeEeEwwwwwww!!! *cue Angry mob* but im glad thats over. It was torture! itchy and painful at the same time..whewwww... Then, after a few days my Grandma Died.. the world is void my granny now. it all started a week ago when she was admitted into a hospital cause she was (pardon my french) "shitting" Blood. so at first i was excited because we share the same room and i want it all for myself. yes i am very selfish mWahahahaha!!! but after awhile she was like fading away from this world. somehow i knew that she was dying. then about 5 days ago she died. her body simply broke down from her condition and that was it. i stood and there she was, in front of me, the person that i hated so deeply(for undisclosed reasons) Lie motionless,in other effing words...dead. i honestly can say that i barely felt anything for her except pure hatred but then again all that hatred vanished the moment i saw her dead, and i wasnt sure what i was feeling..its as if i didnt feel a thing. I was empty, so empty. then during the day that she was destined to be cremated, I still didnt felt a thing. ater awhile they opened her casket so we could get a better look and thats when I started to feel a tinge of sadness. I was sad. sad for the person that I hated. probably because admit it or not, she affected my life in one way or another. she influenced me and help mold myself into who I am now. my grandma and I never really had that ideal Grandma and grandson relationship and I doubt if we could have ever had that because of the way we were. But I guess that no matter what the situation is, its too late for me now. I was hard headed when she was still alive. I was too proud to apologize for my own mistakes and she died. she died and we never got to settle our differences. I was too proud and I never took the chance and i regret that now. even my mom whom she constantly waged war with was with her and they settled their dispute. but me, nO.. I never wanted to apologize even if i had the chance and now its to late. im sorry Lola, im really really sorry..but its too late now. and im really sorry.. i wish that we could have had that relationship. Its too late now and i hope you are in a beter place.. So long.. We will miss you.. Current Mood: sad Current Music: Ghost of a good thing.. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
5:10 pm	gAhhh...ZzZzZzZzZ Blast my father! haha kidding! but then again we had an argument last night because i lost my ID and he was ranting that im wasting money lalala that im such a irresponsible child, misplacing my things and such but then again it was an accident its not like i tried to get rid of the ID on purpose. Blah blah blah....Then earlier today we had an open forum in class and like it turns out most of the people in class are annoyed with the same person! guess who!!! ___________(insert name here) haha whoever guesses right gets a prize! bwahaha anyways i spent several hours looking for the people who are supposed to sign on my form so i could get the ID which takes only about what? 5 minutes to make.. gawds the system sucks.. for me to say the least. and now im here at the library again killing time because i decided to skip eng for my ID replacement and also because I dont like the subject haha im sorry but its true..I gotta go now anyways because i have to get my Dad tickets for UUAP because hes such an Addict gah!..guess Ill update my Lj again some other time... Current Mood: Finally... Current Music: i am missing- dashboard... (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 24th, 2006
10:31 pm	hMmMm Reminiscing.... HwaHhHh!!!! this has been such a great week! im surprised how great this week has been! haha it has its ups and downs but mostly ups! hee! Anyways everything started last tuesday when our PGC prof (aptly dubbed THE VOLCANO) like a Volcano, exploded like there was no tomorrow! he was like a rabid dog! the only thing missing is the part where he foams at the mouth! he ranted and ranted like he was a candidate for the next election and started to fry all those who have done him wrong. and then finally he scolded my kitty which led into a series of complicated events between me and my kitty.. but im glad we got that settled, like we always do. then a little later when we were about to go home she played a joked on me which knocked me off my feet.. gud thing it was only a joke..and she found out some stuff..haha then move to thursday where the only significant thing that happened was the victory of UST against UE but then again it seems so insignificant because UST just Lost to Ateneo earlier tonight. damn those Blue eagles..anyways going back we move on to friday where i took kitty home like i usually do during fridays then i hung out with her at her house, i bonded with her family and ate my dinner there! *God i have no shame* friday is our day and its the day we have our quality time together.. fridays are so significant to me...Saturday, i was to go to this stupid stadium were i am to watch some students swim some laps and win medals and to be Honest... it was Boring as Hell!!! gawds what a waste of time! so after that abbysmal agenda i decided to head on early, but then again i missed my kitty so i asked her what are her plans and it turns out shes going to frolic with a friend and so i told her i would join her haha! and that day was great too! i met some new friends and they were nice and cool! they were very interesting! haha we played alot at the arcade and such haha then later during the night we talked and had our usual conversation and it turns out she found out some stuff..which were nice..haha after a while we said our goodbyes and the funny thing is even in my dreams she was still there! god im really crazy for her..then earlier today i met her again for the 7th time this week wow! im so dedicated! even on sundays i couldnt let the chance to see her, pass. so i went to school and met her for the final time this week and we went to the nearest mall and had a bit of bonding time haha then we went back to school and hung out for a few hours just talking and she told me some stuff which knocked me off my feet! but then again like i said kitty i Love u for who you are and i wouldnt have it anyother way....all in all this was a great week..was a really great week..thanks to kitty again.. haha shes always on my mind haha im such an addict...but yah well my world revolves round her..Gah im soooooo mushy nowadays...im proud of myself haha anyways i hope that this thing between us will never end..Love my kitty...how i wish next week will be so much like this week.... Current Mood: wEeEe Kitty!!! Current Music: The sound of Perverted people behind me (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 17th, 2006
3:58 pm	Kitty Asked me to...and as the Good prince that i am.... 1. How tall are you barefoot? 5'8 2. Have you ever been unfaithful in a relationship? No! 3. Do you own a gun? YeS! its a 22. calibre Sniper rifle i used to massacre pigeons with. 4. Have you had a mental disorder? i DunnO! Maybe...(-_-). 5. How many letters are in your crush's first name? ehr Define Crush. 6. What do you think of hot dogs? Um, Phallic Symbols!!! 7. What's your favorite Christmas song? ... NoNe!!! 8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Softdrinks but then again theyd BARN a hole right through my stomach. sO i guess id settle for milk 9. Do you do push-ups? Yup haha. 10. Have you ever done ecstasy? HELL NO!!! NOT IN THIS LIFETIME!!! . 11. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yup 12. Do you like the rain? HELL YEAH!!!. 13. Are you sweet? kitty says i am... 14. Do you have A.D.D.? not that i know of.. 15. Full Initials? J.A.S.Y. ---- 17. Name four thoughts at this exact moment. 1) i wonder what kitty's duin. 2) study for PGC. 3) Drop by the grocery to do my splurging. 4) More thoughts bout kitty. 18. Name the last 3 things you have bought in the past week. 1) Cellphone Load 2) Food 3) more Food. 19) What time did you wake up today? 1 p.m. im such a bum 20) Can you spell? Hmm, let's see... Y.E.S. 21) Current hate? POTATO!!! AND ITS PARTER THE STICK. 22) Favorite place to be? my room..after certain people vacate the premises. 23) Least favorite place to be? Classroom. 24) Where would you like to go? kitty's house. 25) Do you own slippers? Duh!!! white converse ones 26) Where do you think you'll be in 10 years? U.S. embassy begging them to give me my Visa so i cud pursuit Kitty in new york 27) Do you burn or tan? whichever i dont care. 28) Yellow or Blue? Blue hands down. 29) Would you be a pirate? Oh, ehr... maybe. 30) When was the last time your phone rang? during the concert.. my dad was looking for me. 31) What songs do you sing in the shower? anything i can think of 32) What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Ghosts and all the monster crap my family fed me when i was kid. 33) What's in your pockets right now? my wallet. 34) Last thing that made you laugh? ehrr...Ajei... 35) Best bed sheet you had as a child? uhm the bedsheet that my sis pooped on when we were kids.. she ruined it 36) Worst injury you've ever had? Got hit by a car when i was a kid. 37) How many TVs do you have in your house? 3. 2.. one of them is rightfully mine. 38) Does someone have a crush on you? YeS, obviously haha i have Legions of them!!! gawds im a monster... 39) Do you wish on stars? so far ive seen two falling stars in my lifetime but im to awestruck to wish. 40) What is your favorite book? cant say...i love a lot of books 41) What song did you last hear? i dont wnna miss a thing by aerosmith 42) What is your favorite cereal? Snow Flakes!!! wahoo i love it. 43) What were you doing at midnight last night? Talking wid kitty and Ajei. 44) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? Kitty!!! Current Mood: Long survey... Current Music: aS Lovesr go (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:36 pm	OMG!!! the end is here!!! Gah...what is up with me? i woke up feeling motivated to study!!! * reader dies of shock* i dunno why and now im here doing school stuff earlier than i usually do gah then when i get home im going to read my book on the subject of the Constitution gah!!! this is not me! the devil must have put some sort of spell on me.. but then again it must be kitty inspiring me.. hayy...i keep ranting bout my wonderful kitty and kitty if ur reading this dont be freaked out by my page...yes i know its similar to yours but then again all the other themes suck so i settled for this one haha grabe thanks to you i am having my own renaissance haha..gawds ive never been interested in such things but now, thanks to you ive discovered something wonderful and beautiful...thanks kitty..cant wait till monday haha so i cud see you again..i miss my kitty eventhough weve only been apart for two days but then again to me it feels like eternity... can i help myself if i miss her?...so thats settled haha I Love yah kitty...and eventhough maybe youre ears and eyes are bleeding because of the so many times ive told it to you..the word and feeling is stronger than ever..anyways ive got to go home and study ahahaha im gonna study garrrr.. this is only means that the second coming is here!!! *prays for awhile to prepare* so now i gotta go.. bye!! Current Mood: Yeah bOi!!! Current Music: i Dont Wanna Miss A thing (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
12:17 pm	WaitinG fOr cLasseS to Start... aHk crap im bored, so bored. my friend whos beside me just fought with her crush and now hes tailing me around cause the girl is not speaking to him.. how stupid is that? haha! ooh i saw the play Luna yesterday and i guess it was ok, well it was great actually but there are some parts that i didnt like but all in all it was great. it made me laugh several times so i guess thats a plus point. ahk and then on the way home kitty told me some things at kinilig nanaman ako *shit eww mushy...* *shoots myself in the head* but anyways haha ive never been more happier. it feels as though it will be forever and i do wish that it is forever..but then again wishing isnt the only thing.. ill try to make it last forever..hay...emo nanaman ako.. grarr..but yeah its true..haha no matter how i try not to be emo, in the end emo prin kinalalabasan ko..anyways ive gotta go cause Kitty asked for some Lollipops haha..*must obey* *must obey* then ill be heading for my own beheading! come PGC time and when i get called i wont have anything to answer! wahahahaha!!! grrr im dead...o well i still have my kitty.. Current Mood: *died of boredome* Current Music: tHe Sound of the Librarians SsShhhhh (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 10th, 2006
7:55 pm	Inner ThouGhts... Hah! sIncE thIs will be my 1st entry, i guess it should be a work of art.. or something like that... So iM gUeSSing in this entry im going to say everything that i have wanted to say for the last 3 years,words that certain people should hear, special messages for loved ones and those who completely fucked up my life so im going to rant all i want and theres nothing you guys cud do to stop me... First of all to my family.. Guys i love you all but please understand that the certain circumstances and revalations have caused me to try and break away from you all. Its not that i want to but i just cant take all the crap and shit that you guys have done. i am disgusted by your actions and frankly, i am tired of it. Yeah i guess you have a point when you said that i am no better than you guys but at least i cared for the group you guys called family. Please understand, i cared for you guys really i do and do you guys have any idea how many times i have cried and bled just to keep us all together and i think that it is evident up until now. i guess it seems that you guys dont care how much i sacrifice because all you guys seem to want is your own selfish motives. yes i know i have my own motives bu at least i have your best interests at heart.but still you guys dont care so ill stop caring too. im tired, i am god damn tired of you all so dont be surprised of the day ill finally go. I hope you guys can sort this out for yourselves, i miss the old days but this is now, nothing can bring those days back so guys good luck with y'all and goodbye. i love you all. tO my Friends: Guys, i have nothing else to say but i love you all. thanks for being my Family, the Family that molded me into who i am, showed me the fun things in life and those who picked me up when i was down. without you guys i wouldnt be standing here. i exist solely for you guys and you can count on me anytime. i promise... To my LasT two Gf'S To my 1st Gf, the only thing i have to say is im sorry, i know i have hurt you, we were kids then who didnt know what relationship means, and i asked you to be mine when i really didnt have any feelings for you. but still thanks for being a nice friend eventhough i didnt gave you any worth when we were still together, and im sorry for that..i can only hope for your forgiveness..and thank you for showing me the importance of treasuring you love ones and showing them how much you love them..that lesson i still keep with me and im putting it into good use...thank you and goodbye.. To my 2nd Gf: Your loss, haha i would have given you everything if you had stayed with me but your were so stupidly blided by that fat jock ha! and look where you are now, yes i admit youre doing quite good but there is a things called karma and im sure it will get you back, you nearly destroyed my entire being and in the process you shattered my heart into a million pieces i was crushed, i couldnt eat, i couldnt sleep but after a few weeks the truth started to sink in: you just didnt care! so i decided to move on and became a bitter jerk for the rest of the year. You destroyed who i was. period. no questions asked. but thank you.. with that gruesome act you pulled resulted into a reformation of my character, i was no longer the haugthy jerk that i was but instead i became the new me. when i think about it i should really be thanking you instead of cursing you but still... thinking of the pain and suffering youve caused me, you deserve to pay for it and i know someday someway, youre gonna pay.... To my BeSTfriend: Sis, i know recently weve been into alot of arguements but please do understand that ive been only trying to protect you from a fate that in the end i know you wouldnt want and tht you would dearly regret. i know i was wrong to be angry and that i had no right but please, please do understand that as your closest friend, i dont want you to be hurt because eventhough you say you arent, you are still very immature when it comes to love and relationships...but after all that pile of crap we've been through, i want you to know that i still am here for you, to support you as not just as your bestfriend but also as our bro. whatever happens we'll still be siblings, an honor to the pact we made right sis? haha till we meet again... And Finally to the girl i Love: As you can see most of the people at this list are girls and thats because my life revovles around them, i have more friends who are girls than those who are boys but anyways thats not the point. my point is that i have several words for you...but the jist to the thing is...I LOVE YOU.I REALLY REALLY REALLY DO...and i hope that this feeling will never go away, you are everything to me,everything. theres not a day that goes by without me thinking of you,dreaming of you and wishing that you were with me in my arms.i Love you with all that i am..How i wish you wernt going away in 4 years..and even if that day comes..ill be ready to leave everything behind for you..thank you..thank you for making me feel like i am god, that i can do anything, that i am invincible, that i look so good...thank you for making me believe in myself again...you do not know how much you mean to me...yes i know sometimes i suck but as much as i could, i am trying really hard to be the guy that would be the guy who you would want to come to everytime, the guy you would want to stay with.. i try as much as i could to really please you and make you really happy...believe me i really try to...so last friday you said yes and with that yes i am going to try to be the guy everybody dreams of.. as much as humanly possible i will never try to hurt you..i know the feeling.. the stories youve told me before...i shall do my best not to replicate them.. as your prince charming ill try and give you the best happily ever after ending there is. I love you and i doubt if it will ever go away... I Love you and ill do my best to make you happy, really happy, more than anyother human being has made you feel before..How id wish youd stay with me..it would be hard for me to go on without you and that i swear is true...but then again only time will tell... but at least i know my goals...what i will do...to make your stay with me worthwhile....i Know ive said it before but ill say it again.... KITTY, I LOVE YOU, I REALLY REALLY DO, FROM THE VERY BOTTOM OF MY HEART.... Current Mood: WeBoo Current Music: MuCh hAs bEeN sAid (2 Comments |Comment on this)